1starrk
Explorer
I'm not great at these introductions, so I'll just write down whatever comes to mind right now. I'm 20, and I've dealt with body dysmorphia, eating addictions, depression, and a general dislike of my appearance. For a big chunk of my life I was on the heavier side, peaking at nearly 90kg. I don't know the exact body fat percentage, but I'd guess it was quite high because I was really plump. Around 17-18 I began seriously trying to lose weight, though not in a healthy way. I was starving myself, and within only 4 months I dropped from close to 90kgs down to almost 50. I felt fairly good about my looks, but I think I still carried a lot of body fat, so I hadn't really hit my goal. On top of that, I was constantly exhausted, plus very weak and fragile. I was basically nodding off on the way to school, during school, and on the way back home, falling asleep on public transport or anywhere I could sit for a couple of minutes. I even struggled to lift a 5kg jug of water. Somehow I managed to stay at 50-60kg until I was 19-20. I got a job, a physically demanding one in a warehouse. A doctor's visit was required before hiring, and that's when I also learned I was anemic. I've now worked there for 7 months and have put weight back on, sitting around 70 something kg. I've gone back to disliking my appearance even more, and I don't seem to have gotten much stronger or built any muscle over these 7 months. I can sort of understand why, since I was still eating junk until recently. For maybe 1 month or close to 2, I've been eating better, I'd say: tuna sandwiches, chicken, potatoes, greek yogurt and cottage cheese. Even though it hasn't been long, I don't see anything improving. I've known about peptides for a while, but I'm sure I'm still missing a lot of information, which I'm hoping to learn about here. My main goal is to lose the body fat. I do admire the skinny and slim look that usually asians have, but with the help of peptides I wouldn't mind a more lean muscular look. I never liked the really large muscular builds, but something lean and still slim is also something I admire. I don't know if I overshared or not, but I hope this was okay for my first post.
