islandtime50
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I'm 51. About 4 years back I was in great shape — and by that I mean two workouts a day, except on run days when it was just one, with a single rest day each week unless I got hurt. Then over the last 4 years things went off a cliff: I began a new career, COVID hit all of us, and I learned I had colon cancer.
As far as that goes, the cancer is as wrapped up as it can be — my prognosis is the best you could ask for given that I carried a tumour for 8-10 years, had it invade surrounding tissue, and got so run down that at one point I would have accepted that it was my time. Evidently 46 sites around what used to be my colon were sampled and every one came back negative, and I don't even need chemo ... see you in 6 months. Based on those unexpected results I was downgraded from stage 3 or 4 to 2.
Six months have passed since then. My diet has changed, I really can't drink alcohol, creatine no longer agrees with me, and for the first time in my life I'm not making any physical or fitness progress.
I'm 51 for the first time, my energy still hasn't come back to the level I'm hoping to regain, and I'm stuck at 220lbs and 29%bf compared to my former glories.
There's also a neat little scar low on my abdomen, just inboard and below my right hip bone (inguinal, I believe), that's 45 years old now. One testicle refused to descend, so at age 6 I had an orchiopexy. Almost by definition that makes this a case of hypogonadism from birth, since male hormones are what drive most of that process when it happens on its own.
SIDE NOTE - Because of this I have one small, underdeveloped testicle that I'm also supposed to monitor for cancer. It isn't supposed to work very well, but I can tell you it produces swimmers, because when I tried to spare my wife the burden of birth control I went for a vasectomy. The expert in that area actually hurt me badly by doing the vasectomy on the presumed functional twin, chose to leave the little fella alone, and the follow-up lab results showed we would still make babies (something I/we never had trouble with before), which made the whole thing not only painful and infuriating but ultimately pointless. Beware rich little bored men with knives.
During those 4 years, along with my 50th and 51st birthdays, cancer and weight gain, another thing happened ... no more wood. No real drive for it either, and well, we aren't going to make any babies anyway. That's a pretty noticeable little change, can't recommend it. My wife never had the same drive I did, so honestly I think she's quite relieved. For me, though, this is a problem.
So the small ball thing first, I think. It's been a lifelong thing and not something I've really talked about. I can assure you there's a lot of casual glancing near urinals and in communal showers during sports or at the municipal pool. I've noticed (and it's been noted) that I'm not built like everyone else, or at least, on the spectrum of male sexual physiology I run a little off the bumpy part of the bell curve. It hasn't really been much of an issue since puberty. But I'm a low T guy and always have been, I just never thought of it that way.
Now I'm thinking about it, though. I'm thinking TRT. My doctor (we're new to each other since just before the cancer was found) won't be any help. In fact, anti-depressants are the only answer he has for me. I'll admit I was down before the emergency, life-saving bowel resection, but it took 4 years of no results, a relatively late career change (and the poverty that comes with it), and nearly dying to get there. I am strongly uninterested in, if not opposed to, anti-depressants. New blood work is going to be necessary. In late Feb I was at 11.6nmol/L. I also have a ferritin problem (originally from bleeding from my tumour), and a weird high RDW on my CBC that could be from that or from the infusion I got right before surgery. Anyway, the long and short is I have a doctor I don't know well or trust, and he's not going to help with any of this.
I want to look at optimal testosterone levels via trt and then follow up with tirz or reta once that is stable. From what I can see, I'm looking at UpGuys as a telehealth for trt or simply going grey and getting blood work through teletest.ca. I live around the mid-point of Vancouver Island in B.C.
I have an appointment with my doctor this week and I've thought about trying to get a referral for an endocrinologist or a urologist, since what I have falls in their respective wheelhouses. However, I feel the current state of health care looks excellent for life-saving interventions and absolutely shit for actual health. Health and wellness look to have been sold off to third parties.
Questions? Comments? ... Dirty Jokes?
As far as that goes, the cancer is as wrapped up as it can be — my prognosis is the best you could ask for given that I carried a tumour for 8-10 years, had it invade surrounding tissue, and got so run down that at one point I would have accepted that it was my time. Evidently 46 sites around what used to be my colon were sampled and every one came back negative, and I don't even need chemo ... see you in 6 months. Based on those unexpected results I was downgraded from stage 3 or 4 to 2.
Six months have passed since then. My diet has changed, I really can't drink alcohol, creatine no longer agrees with me, and for the first time in my life I'm not making any physical or fitness progress.
I'm 51 for the first time, my energy still hasn't come back to the level I'm hoping to regain, and I'm stuck at 220lbs and 29%bf compared to my former glories.
There's also a neat little scar low on my abdomen, just inboard and below my right hip bone (inguinal, I believe), that's 45 years old now. One testicle refused to descend, so at age 6 I had an orchiopexy. Almost by definition that makes this a case of hypogonadism from birth, since male hormones are what drive most of that process when it happens on its own.
SIDE NOTE - Because of this I have one small, underdeveloped testicle that I'm also supposed to monitor for cancer. It isn't supposed to work very well, but I can tell you it produces swimmers, because when I tried to spare my wife the burden of birth control I went for a vasectomy. The expert in that area actually hurt me badly by doing the vasectomy on the presumed functional twin, chose to leave the little fella alone, and the follow-up lab results showed we would still make babies (something I/we never had trouble with before), which made the whole thing not only painful and infuriating but ultimately pointless. Beware rich little bored men with knives.
During those 4 years, along with my 50th and 51st birthdays, cancer and weight gain, another thing happened ... no more wood. No real drive for it either, and well, we aren't going to make any babies anyway. That's a pretty noticeable little change, can't recommend it. My wife never had the same drive I did, so honestly I think she's quite relieved. For me, though, this is a problem.
So the small ball thing first, I think. It's been a lifelong thing and not something I've really talked about. I can assure you there's a lot of casual glancing near urinals and in communal showers during sports or at the municipal pool. I've noticed (and it's been noted) that I'm not built like everyone else, or at least, on the spectrum of male sexual physiology I run a little off the bumpy part of the bell curve. It hasn't really been much of an issue since puberty. But I'm a low T guy and always have been, I just never thought of it that way.
Now I'm thinking about it, though. I'm thinking TRT. My doctor (we're new to each other since just before the cancer was found) won't be any help. In fact, anti-depressants are the only answer he has for me. I'll admit I was down before the emergency, life-saving bowel resection, but it took 4 years of no results, a relatively late career change (and the poverty that comes with it), and nearly dying to get there. I am strongly uninterested in, if not opposed to, anti-depressants. New blood work is going to be necessary. In late Feb I was at 11.6nmol/L. I also have a ferritin problem (originally from bleeding from my tumour), and a weird high RDW on my CBC that could be from that or from the infusion I got right before surgery. Anyway, the long and short is I have a doctor I don't know well or trust, and he's not going to help with any of this.
I want to look at optimal testosterone levels via trt and then follow up with tirz or reta once that is stable. From what I can see, I'm looking at UpGuys as a telehealth for trt or simply going grey and getting blood work through teletest.ca. I live around the mid-point of Vancouver Island in B.C.
I have an appointment with my doctor this week and I've thought about trying to get a referral for an endocrinologist or a urologist, since what I have falls in their respective wheelhouses. However, I feel the current state of health care looks excellent for life-saving interventions and absolutely shit for actual health. Health and wellness look to have been sold off to third parties.
Questions? Comments? ... Dirty Jokes?